A New Starting Point

OK, here, finally, are my measurements. I don't have an accurate picture of how much weight I had regained since 4/28 and starting my new job and so forth and basically falling off the McKenna bandwagon, but I started on listening to the mind programming CD and reading the book and trying to follow the four golden rules (not always successfully). Still, I am doing much better.

Here are my new measurements. I think I have lost weight in the last few weeks, because I know I was up over 270 again and I also know that my pants are starting to fit better again, which is a huge thing. So here is a starting point. I'm going to try and keep at least two weeks between measurements and weighing... it might be more.

Weight - 268.4
Waist - 44"
Belly - 45 3/4"
Hips - 53"
% Body Fat - 29.6%

Since 4/28: Weight +2.8lbs; Waist +1", Belly +1 3/4", Hips +1 1/2", % body fat (4/20) .8%

Over all, not that bad. I'll have to modify some of my goals, but seriously here's where I'm at:

July 1 - 255
August 8- 245
September 15 - 235
October 22 - 225
November 29 - 215
January 1, 2009 - 200lbs

Three things I struggle with:
1. Eating due to stress/boredom. Skinny people do not eat due to emotional responses.
2. Eating when truly hungry. I know when I'm hungry. I can eat when I'm hungry. What do I do when I'm hungry and it's not time to eat? (I.e. meeting someone for dinner). Learning how to eat a little so as not to get full but also not be hungry so I don't shut down my metabolism
3. Drinking pop. I know I shouldn't drink non-diet pop. It's full of empty calories. It's now a choice, though,and I notice I tend to reach for non-diet pop instead of water. So the goal is to drink more water and less pop in general. Also the goal of the program is thusly: to control what you put into your body calorie wise. So Control.

Three things I'm good at:
1. Eating slowly. I don't always do it, but I can do it and it does make the food taste better.
2. Throwing food away. If I am eating slowly, I can stop when I am full and throw away the food on the plate. Just the other day I went to KFC and ate about half a chicken breast and a few bites of corn and a few bites of mac and cheese and a few bites of biscut and I was done. A little distressing to throw away all that food, especially the chicken for some reason, but I did it. I'm pretty good about throwing away extra fries at fast food restaurants. And just the other day I ordered a combo from Taco Hut that came with breadsticks and I threw almost the entire order of breadsticks away. Lesson to learn - maybe don't need combos.
3. I am very good at eating what I want and not what I think I should. :)

Thing to work on this week:
Excercise. I need to start walking again and taking more steps in general.

Another Monday

So, here are my measurements for this week.

Weight - 265.5

Waist - 43"
Belly - 44"
Hips - 51 1/2"

From last week that's a loss of 2lbs, and 3". Total 11.8lbs and 10.5" on those three measurements since 3/25.

Goals for this week: Follow 4 Golden Rules everytime I'm hungry. To not eat when I'm not hungry. To eat whatever I want. To eat conciously and to stop when I am full. To cut back on regular soda. To drink more water. To walk at least 3 times this week, prefer 5. To not step on the scale until next Monday.

Bad Week... trying to do better now....

Well, to get it over with:

As of 4/21 -

Weight - 267.6
Waist - 43"
Belly - 45 1/2"
Hips - 53"

% body fat - 28.8%

That's .8lbs weight gain, which I would/might be willing to put toward muscle gain/fat loss, maybe. No change in waist, 3/4" loss from belly and 1/2" gain in Hips. All three subject to error in human measuring. Effective 0" loss.

Well, when I look at it that way, it's not really so bad, is it? I guess I just saw those numbers not going down and it looked so horrible to be "gaining" weight when I'm supposed to be losing weight on this program. I did realize I stopped eating when I was hungry and had started eating whenever I wanted - and not as conciously. So, from this moment forward I am only going to measure my weight and stuff once a week, and body fat % can only be measured once a month for accuracy. That puts my next body fat measurement around May 19. They say normal healthy is about 22%. I'd like to eventually get down to about 18-20% body fat, and my goal weight is still somewhere about 150-160. I like that, actually. A weight loss range, instead of a specific number, because then, if I say, I want to weight 152, and I go to 153, I may freak. Also, changing the concept of my goals from "I must weight this number or less" to "around this number" in my brain, and I think maybe I can stop weighing myself every five seconds. After all, what's going to change? Nothing. And I'm going to make myself miserable and stop the program, and it's a reallly good program. The book comes out in the US on May 15, so I'm really looking forward to that. Thinking about preordering from Barnes and Noble.com - only $15.00. If I order $10 more dollars, shipping is free. Gee... can I spend $10 more at a bookstore? I don't know... :) I'll decide by May 1.

Weight Loss....but

Eh. I'm not happy with myself. I messed up big time this weekend. Totally binged on popcorn and other stuff when I wasn't even hungry. Well, I don't have much time today, but next time I'm hungry, I'm back to it....

Weight - 266.8

Waist - 43"
Belly - 46 1/4"
Hips - 52 1/2"

Total loss of 1.4lbs, 2 1/4" this week. Though I might attribute a little of this week's non-weight loss with muscle gain. I've been walking. I walked 4 times last week 15-25 min walks. This week, I'm hoping for 5 times, plus I'm going to a convention on Saturday, which will involve a bit of walking around. I'm still trying to get my pedometer working correctly.

Total loss since 3/24 - 10.6lbs, 7 1/4" (I think).

Goal: 260lb by 5/5/08. That's s 3 weeks to lose 6.8lbs. I think I can do that. Hopefully this week I'll be back on track and lose around 3lbs. I'm not totally concerned with the inches. I'm just using them as an alternate tracking method. This way, if I have a week where I am not losing weight, but I still lose inches I am not completely disheartened. :)

Oh happy day!

So, I used to dread these days, how much weight have I gained? How much did I lose, how is this possible? Why me? Now, now I love weigh in days. I have got to STOP looking at the damn scale all the time though. I'll get better. I promise. I had a bad day yesterday. It started out OK, but when I was hungry, I munched popcorn and the day went down hill from there - I ended up with a bad taste in my mouth, and ate a pickle to make it go away, and then some cheezits and we finally ate dinner and I couldn't tell if I was hungry or not, and the whole night I couldn't tell and I still ate dinner and some more later too. So, back on the wagon today, again. I love this program, because I can eat anything I want, because I can't fail, and because you can jump right back. With Weight Watchers if you had a bad day, you'd lose all your points and be unable to think about anything but food and be full of guilt and mad at yourself. I am a bit upset, and I knew better, but I don't feel guilty and that I need to just stop, because I'm not on a diet. I'm changing my lifestyle habits.

Anyway, here we go:

Weight - 268.2lbs
Waist - 43 1/2"
Belly - 47"
Hips - 53 1/2"

Total loss this week: 3.4lbs, 3"

Total loss since 3/24: 9.2lbs, 5"

Now, I need to up my excercise, I'm going to try to walk at least 5 times this week at least 15mins. I know it's not alot, but I need to go slow, or I am going to fail the excercise bit at least right now. I know walking isn't good if it is slow, but I have to go slow right now, or my back and feet will protest and I'll be unable to do it at all. Any movement is better than no movement. I'm also doing small things, 20 "against the wall push ups" which help with upper body toning; ab crunches, which just involve sucking in my abs and holding and then letting go. The walking will help tone my legs, but I could also do some kicks and I'm going to do some biceps as well. I don't just want to be thin. I want to be healthy, fit, and strong.

Hooray!

I am so excited right now!! And happy! And hopefully! And, and and.... yay! :)


OK, so measurements:

Weight - 271.6
Waist (natural) - 45"
Waist (at bellybutton) - 47 1/2"
Hips - 54 1/2"

That would be a lost of 5.8lbs and a total loss of 2 inches!

I'm sticking with this for at least forever. :) So easy, so simple, and just wow, I love it, and I love it, love it, love it. I plan to start walking every single day now, so it might not be a long walk, but it'll be a walk and that's all that matters. It's good for my weight. It's good for my heart and it's good for my high blood pressure and it's good for my creativity. So it's good all around. Hooray!

Eeek!!! I'M SO HAPPY. I've got weigh-in on Friday with mom. I hope I've lost even more by then.

Monday, Monday....

Well, I'm trying something new. I'm not really keeping track of what I'm eating, exactly. I'm trying not to eat when I'm not hungry and to stop eating when I'm full. Not exactly working, but it'll take some time, i think. I feel this way, that my body, with this plus walking everyday and toning (abs, arms, chin and chest, mostly) I'll get down to my ideal body weight and size. It's the only thing i think that's going to work for me, because counting calories, WW points, etc are too much work and I'm not a "diet" food person, since I don't like a lot of fruit and veggies and the ones I do like are the starchy ones that aren't "good" for you.

Anyway:

Weight: 277.4. (ARGH!)

Waist - 46" (natural)
Belly - 48" (at bellybutton)
Hips - 55"


My goals over the next month - to lose enough inches and weight to fit into my jeans and shorts comfortably; to try not to eat when I'm bored, to try to eat less at night and to try and know when I'm hungry and when I'm satisfied.

Monday

OK. Point 1 - I found a free web point calc, which is pretty on target.

Weight 271

Down 2lbs from last week, but still up by 1.2lbs, but at least it's not a gain

Measurements - almost all down, so bonus!

Waist - 44"
Hips - 53"
Right Arm - 15"
Left Arm - 16.5"
Right Thigh - 26.5"
Left Thigh - 27.5"

Not excercising today, can hardley breath due to being sick. Will update food later.

Disappointment

It's Monday. Sigh

The weekend didn't go well.

Saturday I ate 3/4ths of my Fetticine with Chicken and bread from Macaroni Grill. I also ate several Honey Graham Stix. Sunday I ate 2 and 2/3rds slices of Digornio Four Cheese Pizza, mini nilla wafers, hondy graham stix, a bowl of cinnamon bun cereal, most of a fat free hot dog and a box of velvetta shells and cheese.

No excercise this weekend, unless you count cleaning the house and grocery shopping and six trips up and down the stairs.

Weight: 273 - that's a 3.2lb gain. Sigh
Bust - 51" - no change
Waist - 44" - no change
Hips - 55" +1
Right Arm - 16" +1
Left Arm - 16" no change
Right Thigh - 28" - no change
Left Thigh - 28 1/2" - +1/2"

Today's already been bad, so I'll have to make up for it the rest of the week and this weekend. I so do not want to clean my mother's kitchen and my car!!!

Day 5

So First, since this is a Monday on to the measurements:

Weight: 269.8

Bust: 50"
Waist: 44"
Hips: 54"
Right Arm: 15"
Left Arm: 16"
Right Thigh: 28"
Left Thigh: 28"

My overall goal is to get my weight to between 150-160 depending on where it wants to be. As for measurements themselves.... I'd like to be around a dress size 12 which means I need to lose about 12" or so in my waist, roughly. We won't really worry about that for now, per my estimates I've got about 2 years to get to my ultimate goals. For now I'll just settle for losing inches.

As for this weekend, eating was bad.... Friday we had a party to celebrate a friend's pregnancy, so I overate there, Saturday we were in Indy, so I overate there and Sunday was the superbowl and I probably overate then too.

Friday: Double Quarter Pounder and Medium Fries from McD's plus HI-C orange non-diet pop; 1/3rd of Digornio Garlic Bread Pizza; 3 Reeses Cups, Potatoe Chips, Licorice, Cheetos, Mozarella Stix and Popcorn Chicken.

Saturday: Arby's Med Roast Beef, Curly Fries, a side of Cheddar; Original Auntie Anne's Pretzel; Two bags of Chewy Sprees; 9oz Sirloin, Baked Potatoe w/butter, a few bites of a ceasar salad, three potatoe skins, one roll at Damon's for Dinner; pretzels and root beer w/amaretto and a pomegrante martini.
*We did do some walking on Saturday, so a few excercise points for that

Sunday: 24 Sweet BBQ wings from BW3s and a basket of buffalo chips with cheese, some pretzels with mustard and most of a bag of PopSecret Extra Butter popcorn.


Goals for this Week:

1. Lose 1.5lbs at least
2. Keep Food Log
3. Excercise Cardio 20mins 3x
4. Excercise Weights 3 reps of 12 for biceps, triceps, ab crunches and pecs; x2